What a Girl Wants...

I have been a busy girl the last few weeks, and because of it I have slacked at my writing exploits.  I would say, sorry, but I have had a pretty nice few weeks, and I am sure no one has actually gotten offended by the lack of my drivel lately.  Though I can tell you that I have missed it, myself.  This little bit of time I spend here talking about my experiences and opinions, really helps me sort through my own thoughts sometimes.  I feel the keys under my fingertips and things seem to unravel. 

It accounts for all the random tangents and rambling. 

So here I am back again to ramble away.

I mentioned in a post a few weeks ago how I have been going through a search for my own goal in this dating game.  I am unhappy to admit that I am still at a crossroad, and because of that I have put off introducing new men into the mix. 

Luckily I have some really great friends.  Otherwise by now I would have definitely met my quota, and then some, for alone time.  To say that I am not good with alone time is an understatement.  I have gotten better with it, and I do value it at times, but I am not good at.

I get alternately bitchy and depressed. 

Hanging out with friends is just as good a distraction from myself than a boy toy or romantic interest, but there are times when I just want to flirt and be flirted with.

I crave that feeling sometimes. There is nothing like the high you get from knowing someone is into you.  Let's face it there is not much that can beat it. Then the rush of body heat, the look in their eyes as they come in for the kiss, the brush of skin on skin.   There is just nothing like it, and I miss it.

Sometimes I worry that I am even more confused about what I want than I realize.  I have never really been one to make cut and dry decisions after all.  Don't believe me?  Just ask me what I want to eat...

Ultimately I need to figure it out, but I am choosing to try and not make too big a deal of it.  I am much better at going with the flow, than trying to tell the water where I want to go.

Are you as indecisive as I am?

How do you help yourself decode the cipher of your own psyche?

Are you happy with what you have, or are you in search as well?

What are you looking for?

How important is sex for you? 

Do you have different needs based on whether you are in a relationship or if you are single?